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I nearly had an accident on my motorcycle this morning as I was leaving home at 6.15am. Within 100 metres of my home, a car just pulled out of a private driveway, and came side-on to within a foot of me as I passed at around 20mph. He braked sharply as I swerved and I got the impression he had as big a shock as I did. The driver presumably thought that no-one else in their right mind would be on this quiet suburban road at that time and it would be clear. But then I'm not in my right mind. After I'd passed he drove on slowly well behind me until our paths parted.
But I was shaken by this and five minutes later I was still feeling the effects including anger towards him for his 'carelessness' that had threatened my health. But then I realised as I cycled along beside Hyde Park towards my clinic at Cavendish Square, that I was hanging on to feelings that were not appropriate for where I was at that moment; I was holding onto emotions that linked to a past event, all be it five minutes ago, but were nothing to do with my current situation. At this moment, I was passing beautiful parkland and trees without any other traffic around and it was lovely and peaceful. Why should I continue to feel negativity and anger when it doesn't affect anyone else other than myself? It occurred to me ....why don't I just let these emotions go so I can get back to normal life and enjoy this moment? ...So I did.
I freed my neck of tension then made myself think of something that brought a smile and then a laugh, (doing this alone on a motorbike is probably certifiable) and I found the negativity, anger and shaken emotions just evaporated. Within a minute I was back to my normal self.... maybe a bit mad but happy.
I'm now glad I remembered to let go of the past. It doesn't serve me, as it only holds me back. Forward and up as they say..... Must remember to laugh lots. It's a great stress buster....and keep my neck free.
Have a good day. :-)